Ahhhhh!

This transition period is HUGE.
It seems collectively we have decided on a soul level to face our darkness. Whether we want to our not our world is forcing us to stop and take accountability. For me personally, I feel like all my issues are staring me in the face demanding my attention. NOW. As in RIGHT NOW.

I'm overwhelmed. I'm stressed. I'm anxious. I'll admit it - I'm fearful.
Simultaneously I'm excited and hopeful.
There is an urgency that I did not feel before.
The call to action has been sounded in my mind, my emotions, my body!

No matter how I try to distract myself, I'm unable to silence the sound of my truth. It reverberates in every pore of my body, pushing and bursting to be let out. Anything I do that is not in accordance with my higher self or my soul purpose is beginning to cause actual, physical discomfort. For example, this week at work I had to call people on the phone to try to get them to register for an upcoming event. Every single time a person picked up the phone I would loose my voice and begin to cough! The second I would hang up, I would be fine. FINE. The moment I would pick up the phone again - BOOM! Coughing, chocking, and actual pain in my esophagus.

My intention for this weekend was to sit down and map out a plan to get me out of my current situation. Have you heard the expression, "When we make plans, God laughs"? Well, God must be having one heck of a rip-roaring time watching me and my escapades. All of my well planned plans have gone to crap. Thankfully God blessed me with her sense of humor and I'm just exasperated enough to be laughing right along beside her.

I've come no closer to mapping out an escape route. I have no idea what I'm going to do. I know what I want to do, I just don't know how to MAKE it happen.
So I'm going to stop pushing. I'm going to stop letting my rational mind drive me insane with its need to control, to fix, to plan...

I just had an "Ah-ha!" moment. I know exactly what I'm going to do:

Every day I am going to take a step forward, in faith, and put myself out there. I'm going to open to receive and SHOW the universe I'm ready. I cant control what others do, but I can choose to take peaceful action. What is peaceful action? Taking action that is inspired by love and happiness.

I'm going to email all the wonderful people who have given me their cards because they loved my music, and say "thank you!".
I'm going to get together with my producer to just talk and laugh and PLAY with music.
I'm going to contact different venues and OFFER myself in the spirit of SERVICE.
AND I'm going to volunteer to play my music at either a hospital, or a recovery center.
....

wow.
...

I feel great! Seriously, I feel a million times better. I feel, dare I say it, empowered!
Funny, the second I let go and let God, everything becomes more clear.
How's that for a non-plan!